Its been awhile since I visited my little blog. Life seemed to carry me away….belly dances and rituals, vacations and holidays, parties, planning, moving and shaking….not to mention the technological difficulties.
Samhain was a difficult time for me. Filled with doubts, with stress. I was tired, aching for release…for a time-out.
Between Thanksgiving and Yule – there was my break. I had sunshine and sand and waves. Days of no responsibilities. Shared time with family I hadn’t seen in awhile. Time alone for the Man and me. I got a breather, a chance to renew. I think we all need that at some time. Alaska is not easy place to live, in my opinion. the dark, the cold, the snow. To flourish here, you need time away. The mountains always call me back, but periodically I need the song of the ocean to soothe my soul.
I feel refreshed. A better view on where I am going. My purpose. I’ve begun forming my practice.
I began my “cycle work” as I am calling it. Celebrating the New Moon with those not of my tradition but still it was a worthy and fulfilling rite. My Full Moon work began with fellow Druids, on one of the coldest days yet. Vacation interfered with my last Full Moon. But the next New Moon looks promising…New Moon, New Year. I feel pulled to honor the turning of the Land……the typical pan-Pagan Sabbats hold little meaning for me so I am concentrating on the Land Herself….the push/pull of lunar mysteries…..the growing of the Sun’s light. Imbolc is the only holy day I feel…..a personal celebration of an important goddess in my life. …so I will be celebrating it with the greater Pagan community.
I have a few projects on the horizon. Druidry is first and foremost in everything I do this coming up year. An ogham study group to continue my forays into divination as well as my current devotion to the runes…..my kickstart-restart of OBOD studies…….devotional dance……Grove forming….and my continued work with the Temple/community center. The Gods have been particularly silent of late……briefly visiting at Samhain…..but reflective of the season’s moods.
What’s all this stuff really mean anyways? In the grand scheme of things? The projects and plans and events……
This is what helps me get through the day. I am forever seeking….whether I am conscious of it or not. I am always wanting that connection , searching for that fulfillment. Some days I find it and I rest….most days I find it but its like a bunny trail, leading me to something else…something bigger and grander and more mysterious and eye opening. Bunny trail after bunny trail. As I come up on another year down, a physical new time sitting right in my face, blatant as can be….I am reminded to stop and think, to renew and reevaluate. Don’t ignore that bunny trail because it looks different than the others….and don’t get discouraged if I have to back track because that darn bunny led me to a dead end. Or in a circle….yea that one has happened before. The bunny trails are LIFE.
Keep moving, push onward. Enjoy the ride. Rise from the ashes of another year….a new horizon.